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First, a little self-promotion to my Facebook, which is more actively updated than my dA. www.facebook.com/ThirteenMemor… Also, this journal entry will be a bit of an emotional dump, so feel free to skip if you want. On the other hand, if you wanna give suggestions, I like those. I like those a lot. =D

So, I've been struggling to find my "beat". I love art and writing (my first passion), and I want to study both, but lately I've been feeling stuck with the content of my art. I want to improve on composition and make my work more dynamic, but I haven't been able to get it. I've studied perspective and movement and whatnot, but I can't seem to figure out how to execute it. On top of those woes, I want to focus on getting my writing published. That's a whole other area of problems. Yes, writing has always been my passion, but I've been too casual with it; I haven't studied and I certainly don't read as much as I should to be a good writer. So I've been reading and writing, and because it takes me much longer to finish a piece of writing than it does to finish a piece of art, I've been neglecting my art. And if I spend too much time on a piece of writing, I get exhausted with it. 

This is usually when the video games come in. Usually Skyrim or Minecraft; something familiar that doesn't require too much brain power to play, and like a person on a diet who just binge-ate an entire cake, I feel guilty after a month of not being productive and cycle starts over.

I'm still in college, and I'm beginning to get the idea that school isn't for me, but I've already spent so much time working at it that I don't want to just give up. ...But I don't even know what degree I want. 

I know I just need to keep working and that I'm just impatient, but I also feel like I need to find a way to break the cycle.

Tl;dr
I've been inactive because I need structure in my life; so that I can be productive and avoid an existential crisis. I've been trying to work on it, but I honestly have no clue how to.
  • Listening to: Game of Thrones Soundtracks
  • Reading: Story Genius
  • Watching: Parasyte the maxim
  • Playing: Final Fantasy XV
  • Eating: Olives
  • Drinking: Mulled Cider

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Dark-Indigo Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks 4 faving

Mature Content

Remorse reborn... by Dark-Indigo
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KariLiimatainen Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
:bow: for :+fav:
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Exper1mental Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
:dance::boogie::dance: Thank you so much for the core membership!!!! :dance::boogie::dance:

I'm glad you found and fixed the problem 
:D For future reference, what settings did you change in the Nvidia Control Panel to fix the issue?
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Sillybilly60 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014   Digital Artist
Thank you kindly for the Watch and fav! :heart:
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Daenithe Featured By Owner May 16, 2014  Hobbyist
I really like your gallery.
Keep up the good work :)
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Identifyed-Khaos Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013  Student Photographer
For the watch, thank you I must! :yoda:
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Gnewi Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconthankyouflowerplz: for adding me to you watch!! :love:
You have beautiful artwork! Looking forward to seeing more from you! XD
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Suzanne-Helmigh Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks so much for the +watch, I hope you will enjoy my future work :3
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Lilly-Anne-Artworks Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:!
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Thank you for the :+fav:
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